I've got some very strange feelings...Yeah, as one of the greatest admirator of you, I probably should have written a long post explaining a lot of things...but today, I'm not in the mood for writing such a post.
Some times ago, this announcement would probably have driven me to despair. Bryan Bosshardt, the one who was on the rankings when I arrived, the man who made me love pink, the player who drove two games to the wall, couldn't retire from what had become his land of gaming. That was a fact, that him and Wouter were the "twin" born to reign by here.
Once again when I joined on the elite, you were about to reach your summit in the game (Wouter being not very far behind), and at that time I would have been ready to give anything to be as talented as you or Wouter. I was convinced that video games, and more particularly GE, were truly aims for a life, and that competing for fast times here was one of the most "noble" thing ever. As I recently said to Wabs, there are some good feelings when playing only one game, because in some way we've got the impression to become good somewhere, and to accomplish something beyond the simple fact of finishing the game. I liked this perfection, because it seemed to be within reach, to hand, without any physical requirements, whereas in reality there were worlds between top players and the others.
Without even playing, I was already following your and Wouter's feats, reminding me the good old time of the N64. A bit later, I began to play the game, and found more and more pleasure in it. I didn't force myself to play, but I soon realized something I was expecting: the better we were, the better seemed the World Records good. Oh my, they were good!
Then with time, you decreased your frequency of playing (I too), and I began to expect a strong comeback for the future (you did some few with Frigate Aztec and Train). But with time, this idea also disappeared, because I was guessing you were probably feeling the same as me: a lack of time, but above all a lack of motivation.
I'm probably the most nostalgic about the "BB-WJ" age, thinking at that time and without any doubts that things would stay like this forever. However, even with the changes I mentionned above, I still enjoy (as you probably noticed
) to come and see new WR being set. Because this new generation of players is the future of Goldeneye. And now I have to deal with these two feelings: on the one hand side, you and Wouter will stay the best Goldeneye players, but on the other side, hope now is in players such as Illu, Mouser or Henrik (and Wouter if he intends to come back one day, what I don't doubt...even if he has his whole life for this
).
Because I don't think you will ever come back. Maybe you'll just touch the game a couple of times, but you won't do a real comeback. If you don't feel any pleasure when playing (what I've been able to see recently through your posts about Depot), then it's time for you to stop. Goldeneye has set its indelible mark in your life, and you did the same on the game.
I wish you a very good folllowing for your life.
Well done Bryan, well done.
And thank you.
