about my Battle with drugs i guess.
ive told people ive quit, some time ago. im living a lie.
seriously though, this isnt a comedown making me want to quit, i have alot of reasons i dont even wanna get into now.
im getting depressed living a lie, and im sick of getting so trashed on e that it sends my life down a huge spiral of depression.
saturday im going dancing with mouser yea, it will be insane good times. thats my fairwell to drug dance!. not my farewell to dance.
as of sunday august 6, i will be once again trying to become sober for life, and this time its not from a comedown i cant handle. i seriously want to give it up this time, and i never really wanted to let it go before, which is why it never went away, though a few month breaks were good.
ive lied to friends about it, and i feel like complete @#%$ about it, so time to stop living my lie and start living a life.
also maybe a met a new someone and Im not letting any of this get exposed around her, and im not gonna do this crap when im with her either. she doesnt really need to know about any of it, and its over now so maybe this one can work.
and since im giving up E, im giving it ALL up cause i feel its the right thing to do.
gg no re n00b drugs
*im not as respsonsible as i said i was with them, but it IS possible to be responsible with them, just know what your doing.
I have NO regrets at all, just maybe lieing to people about it.
i wouldnt have met alot of friends and people if i hadn't gotten started. so time to patch myself backtogether and move on!
